Wednesday, December 3, 2008

A little more time off and I will be super woman........

Well, I have a diagnosis from my family Dr. I have inflammation in my arthritis is very much present :( Which explains why my hands hurt and/ fingers started to curl up, and I also have fibromyalgia.

I am a bit torn at the moment because I also have more time off work. Though I miss work, Dr says I need to rest. The Dr referred me to a rheumatoid specialist and she referred me to a surgeon to talk about a gastric bypass. Both things are scary. But I am tired of feeling like s#@t....She says I am to young to get these medical problems. I agreed. I seems like I turned thirty and my body was a ticking time bomb going off.....I guess I ignored my symptoms to long. Cause truth be told I do not enjoy going to the Dr.s or being ill. I only go to the Dr.s in a dire emergency.......but I could no longer ignore the symptoms and I really just want to feel like myself again.

About the gastric bypass....again I am very torn. It scares me silly. But at the same time I know being as heavy as I am is not good either. It is a catch 22.....I do not feel well enough to work out, and my body is tired sore and in pain (think of your worst flu you ever had....that is how I feel constantly)so all I want to eat is carbs/comfort food...which has made my weight go higher.....does not help that it was just Thanksgiving either. So if my insurance approves the surgery I am in (cause I could not afford it otherwise) I see this surgery merely as a tool to get myself back to a healthy weight. A drastic tool...but a tool none the less.

I am keeping optimistic about everything, and hoping that with each day of rest my body gets stronger and that more good days are to come rather than bad days. I am looking forward to using this time to take care of my body and to eat right. To force myself to work out for at least 30 min a day. My fiance says he will walk with me every evening for thirty min. He is a sweetheart for supporting me, but he has always been my biggest supporter :) I am doing a lot of research on the gastric bypass, and fibromyalgia as well....Keep you all posted. God bless :)


The Bionic Broad said...

I had to have a Lap-band, because after five years of dieting, I couldn't seem to get any lower. The combination of weight-loss surgery and low-carb is the key for me, and you wouldn't believe how much criticism I got in the beginning. Do what's best for you. Sometimes the insulin-induced inflammation (obesity) is so acute that diet alone won't do it. For men, it seems to be much easier. Being a woman, with the "make my butt bigger, please" hormones, we need something extra. I'm praying for you.


Sharon said...

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I really hope things turn out for you. Hold you head up and keep smiling girlie!

Stay strong!