The Journey Continues.....

So far so good. My journey is going well. I have had my ups and downs, but mostly ups! I am getting so close to onderland. I just want to be there! It is hard to imagine that not so long ago I was 81 pounds heavier. It is odd to put on a xl and have it fit. It is odd but almost unreal. The only times I really notice the difference is when I look at my monthly photos...WOW....then it hit me...This is working!!!

As an overweight person most of my life, everything I tried worked for a short while...and then bam...something would happen and the weight I fought so much to lose comes and creeps back up. Not this time!

As I get closer to a normal weight it amazes me how differently people treat me.....I am not used to it. The male attention.....makes me uncomfortable....and people just seem to be nicer. I didn't realize it before. I really was clueless. But there are people out there who are bias against fat people. I am still "fluffy" I am still 66 pounds over weight...but I am getting to my goal!

Tacos gone bad.....

Wow, I have been plugging right along and have not updated my blog! I have been busy but that is not an excuse. Truth is my laptop was broke down....Yet, Things have been good. Got a mini HP laptop so I am now back on the web!!!

So I am 3 1/2 months out, and I am so happy! I have lost quite a bit of weight. I have stopped snoring...I can move my body...yet very much in pain due to EDS.....but less of me to move= happier joints!

Came back from my three month blood work results the other day, and all is great! My Dr is happy with the weight I have lost and my vitamins are at great levels...my Vitamin B is a bit high...but nothing to worry about.

I am so happy with my WLS...I do still have bad days....hence my tacos gone bad. I can eat carne asada tacos...they are so delicious! I love them and I can eat 3/4 of one no problems at all...well usually. The other day I had one of my tacos and it being a busy day I had not had any food til noon...(bad I know) I don't usually do that but I forgot my protein shake on my kitchen counter (yeah one of those days!) So I ate the taco to fast and did not chew, chew, chew, as well as I should have. BIG MISTAKE!!!! I spent the next few hours throwing up the taco. One small bit at a time. It felt stuck. It hurt, I was in pain, and I kept running to the bathroom. I was at work...embarrassed....so I kept working acting as if nothing was wrong. SO finally at 4pm I stopped up chucking and went home at five. I laid in bed and fell asleep. I sleep til 7am the next morning! WOW! My poor body was exhausted.

Anyhow, today my pouch is back to happy, and I am back with energy!

Hope everyone is well, and remember to chew,chew,chew...and eat slow. :)

Good times.....

Life has been good to me. I turned 31 on August 2nd and I went to San Fransisco with some great friends and had a blast! We played tourists; went on Pier 39, Wax Museum, Ripley's Believe It Or Not, and then to the De young Museum to see the King Tut exhibit. That exhibit was beautiful! I love the Egyptian era so many bright bold colors!

Weight loss has been steady. I find I can eat sugar and I can tolerate most all foods. I have problems with cabbage though....weird, odd but true! Though I know I can eat most all foods I do eat healthy and little sugar...I still have not tried steak, and chicken if to dry hurts my pouch and in dire straits...comes back up.

I have been working out 4/5 days a week and started to use the Wii Active...boy does that kick my arse! I am painfully sore today and was yesterday. I have only used this twice! I feel better though and it is nice to add something besides walking to my work out routine. I am shaking things up!

The University where I work at is going through change. Stressful, yet really does not affect me..I am a grant employee and state employee's have gotten a 10% cut. It is the first day of Furlough.....it is so quite in the office.

I am still planing on going back to school. I am scared to leave the safety of this job. But I can not imagine myself here til I am at retirement age. I want higher education and to get a job I have passion for and that allows me to help people. Office work is ok...but after 10 plus years of it.... ready for change!

I am supported by my fiance and family to go back to school. My fiance see's it as an investment in myself and in us.I have been going to school(off and on) a class here and there most every other semester. It has been my dream to go back full time and just get it done! With school comes better pay. So I am hoping by the time I am out of school...going for BA and Masters...that the economy will be right back up again and welcome me with open arms and a great job! Dreams can come true you know :)

So the story continues.......

So far so good weight loss peeps. I am fairing well after surgery (knock on wood) and I am feeling more like myself. Still down on my energy but I am hoping to get that back up soon. Each day that goes by, the better I feel.

The funny thing about weight loss surgery is even if you know what to expect…you really don’t have an idea until you experience it. A lesson learned. It has not been to bad…my weight loss is slow…it is frustrating, but then I remind myself that it has taken 30 years for my body to get how it is it will take some time for it to get down to a healthy weight. That is really all I want is a healthy weight! Also the stalls I have, I believe allow my body to catch up.

Today is a skinny day. Definition of skinny day is as follows…I actually feel smaller. I still have my fluffy days. But today I woke up wore a shirt that usually clings to my belly, and guess what…it flows over my belly and I have room on the sides! Amazing!

Is it funny to be a lil scared of being a healthy weight? I was thinking the other day about how I may have saggy skin. That has been one of my main concerns/fears with weight loss surgery (how vain, I know) But then I mentally kicked myself …I am doing this to be healthy. Period. I will deal with the extra skin if it happens or becomes an issue.

Only other thing that has been concerning me…is my EDS Ehlers Danlos Syndrome. Since being back at work I have been using my hands a lot. My poor hands are not fairing well. They are extremely painful and more claw like. This is very disconcerting. I need to see my family doctor soon and see what they can do. Pain and work….something I am trying to do. Some days are better than others. Today is a not so great day for my hands.

An odd place to be....

It is the longest Monday ever. I am at work and it is so slow. I am tired to boot. Good news….my stall is finally broken. I went on the scale today and am down -1.6. I am happy with this…my body is still getting used to everything and lately I have been working out a lot more.

I still need to remember that I have a small pouch. Over the weekend I went to a movie and drank a lot of water. I waited for 25 min and then had my lunch. I must have not waited long enough or eaten to fast…cause up it came. I really hate that.

I am still having an issue with protein…I seem to not be able to eat enough…I made it to 60 grams 3 out of the 7 days and I only had two days that I was at 40grams. It is hard to eat your protein when you are full!

Some days I feel normal and other days I am in shock that I actually had WLS. I am still finding my footing in all this newness. I am a product of my up bringing and want my weight to fall off now. This is an odd place to be. I am smaller and all my clothes fit awkward. I am in between sizes so buying new clothes is a waste. I am relying on stretchy pants to carry me to size 16, as I am hovering awkwardly at an 18/16…18 to big (just by a bit) and 16 way to small still. I am just starting week 8. So after this week I will be 2 months post op. It is flying by.

*Sigh* wipe dust off and get back up again.......

I am frustrated. I know I should not let the numbers on the scale rule me...but somedays it does break my resolve.I have been going down and up on the scale with the same two pounds!

So frustrating! I know my body is adjusting and I know I am doing *almost* everything right. I have been able to up my protein and water...but I know I need to up my protein even more. Currently I have been only taking 55 grams and nut says to take the minimum 60 grams...sigh. I have worked out everyday except Thursday..and I plan to work out more on the weekend. I am trying to kick arse here!

I keep a food journal, I measure and weight my food. I know it is just a stall, and will go away (soon I hope) I know I should not stress or worry about it. But even with all my knowledge I still have that lil voice in the back of my head that says "maybe this won't work either" I know that voice is full of it. I know this RNY is a valuable tool that will help me get to a healthy BMI. I am just adjusting to my new body, and my body is having a WTF! moment.

Ok I don't mean to rant. I really don't. I know I was blessed to even be able to have WLS... Though at times I act like an ungrateful child (I have moments when I curse my rny) I really am grateful.

I know this is just part of the process and journey. Hopefully soon my scale will budge.....

Stall, baby, Stall

Yes it has happened I have stalled. Could it be because I am eating solid food? Could it be my woman time? What could it be???

Weight loss to date since surgery is 27 ish pounds all together 37 ish pounds (lost ten in post op diet)....not bad for 6 weeks!I think my body is just catching up.

I am not going to worry about this weeks stall to much. I am stalled. It will happen in this WLS journey. But I know I am shrinking. My underwear and pants are falling off. Walking around the track at work I kept hiking up my pants...I was afraid that they would just slide off. I literally have no real pants that fit! I am going to go buy some, but in a few weeks/ month won't need them. I am in between a 18/16.....16 is to tight in my tummy still and 18 fit oddly. My 22 pants fall off as I walk so those are out :) I don't mind having this dilemma at all.

How will I conquer my stall? So glad you asked :)I will make a plan to work out more...walking at lunch for 50 min all days this week, and add working out on Sat and Sun a day of rest...we all got to rest! I will make sure to get all my protein. So far I have averaged 40/50 grams and I really need to hit the 60grm mark, today I had 55 grams...so the rest of the week I will aim at 55/60.

I will keep a update on my weight loss. I have my weekly values...I need to add. Just in case anyone is curious.

So far I am doing great with my new pouchie tool. I am not a dumper...I tested myself...and found this out...which is good/bad. I am happy that I can have a bite of something sweet and not puke...but at the same time I know I need to manage more self control. Funny thing is a bite is all I really want. So not to much worry there.

Hope everyone is well! Have an amazing eve!